Radar

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

—Philippians 4:8

I have to remind myself that life is good. There’s a radar inside me for the bad parts of life. I walk into the kitchen and all I see are crumbs on the counter, and I look in the mirror and don’t even see my face, I just see all the potential wrinkles forming. It’s all true. There are crumbs on the counter. I am getting wrinkles. I just don’t want to live in only that reality.

Because there is another reality. Hope, redemption, and change are real, and they’re happening all around me. So I choose to act out of that reality, because the other one makes life too hard. I’ve missed whole seasons of my life. I look back and all I remember is pain. I guess I went to work or to class during that time, but I don’t really remember. I was too busy being angry about the life I was given. I wanted it to be different. But being angry didn’t change anything. It just wasted time. I can’t take away the things that have happened, but we have today. Today is a gift. And if we have tomorrow, tomorrow will be a gift.